After meeting with the social worker at the children's services here, and taking two weeks to pray and process what we heard, Yesterday, DeLynn and I started filling out the adoption papers. It asked questions such as: "What ages, minimum, maximum." All kinds of questions about what we would be willing to take as far as emotional status, intellectual status, medical status, whether we would be willing to take a child who's parents were alcoholics, drug addicts etc. and so many more questions.
Carmelinda asked DeLynn and I the other day why we wanted to adopt. We have wanted another child for SO long, but now that the process has started, I guess I take that question more seriously. So the question has stuck with me. I've really thought and prayed about that, asking God to reveal the answer to me. Wanting another child is a good answer but I felt like I needed something deeper than that. Suddenly God spoke to me, "You want to adopt because you want to show someone else the love of God. I certainly don't know everything about the love of God, but I know a little. I want him or her to experience the love of their Heavely Father." Like DeLynn said, after I shared this with him, "It's called discipleship." That's what our family is all about! We are all in this discipleship walk together as a family.
As I've been filling out the paper work, God has given me joy and peace, something I didn't have before in this area. DeLynn and I are both excited and like to talk about it, another thing that hadn't really happened before. We also have a peace about the timing. We don't know when this will happen, but God is good and He knows. I am excited about the priveledge of choosing our child. Something that happened to me 40 + years ago.
I wish mom was here. I'm sure she could identify with me a lot in this experience. There are a whole new set of emotions and feelings in this part of the journey. But I'm SO glad my dad is here to share this experience with us. We ask that you continue to pray for our family and our future child.